Baby Elliott: The Last Pre-Partum Post

I’m being induced tonight.

I’m being induced tonight.

I’m being induced to– Nope. No matter how many times I see/say/think it. It still doesn’t feel real. Sometime on Thursday (hopefully!) Elliott will make his debut, this journey will be over, and a new one will begin. My head is so full of thoughts about what the next 24-48 hours will entail that I can’t focus on what the first few weeks with two children will entail, and that’s probably a good thing.

I can hardly believe it’s going to be over, though. I can’t remember what it’s like to not be pregnant. What’s it like to eat or drink anything you want? What’s it like to walk without waddling? To do more than 1/3 of a day’s worth of “work” without being exhausted and in pain for the rest of the day? What’s it like to have a spine that isn’t concave at the bottom? To take a 20 minute steaming hot shower? What’s it like to sleep on your back for more than 5 minutes? Or your front at all?

There are things I will “miss” about being pregnant. I’ll miss the thick hair. I’ll miss the way most people seem to be extra nice and accommodating. I’ll miss a bit of the attention. I’ll miss not being obsessed about looking overweight and I’ll certainly miss folks telling me how great I look, even when I know they’re lying. I’ll miss knowing one of my children is safe because he’s always within reach. Elliott will never be this easy to care for and keep track of, and I’m sure I’ll miss that. It’s silly, but it’s true.

But I’m ready to be done. At my last pre-natal checkup, we discussed the risks and benefits of being induced a bit early. On Thursday I will be 8 or 9 days away from my due date, depending on which one you use and how you count days. It’s only 5 days earlier than the last sonogram calculated my due date at, although that’s largely irrelevant. Since I was progressing slowly but steadily and Elliott’s proven checkup after checkup that he’s healthy and on the big side, my doctor scheduled an induction that starts tonight, and will likely end some time Thursday morning. Last time was quite literally a breeze, more or less. My body was really responsive to the induction methods, the epidural was great, and Charlotte was ready to go when it was time. I’m not expecting Elliott’s birth to go as smoothly, but it sure would be nice. It could be over much sooner, and it could be over on Friday. So long as we end up a healthy family of four, I won’t complain too much.

…and you know what? I’ve been messing around with this post off and on all day. It doesn’t say nearly the stuff I want it to, but i’m now 20 minutes away from the “call window” for my induction, and I can hardly focus. So if it’s raw up there and sentences stop and start, so be it.

If you want to follow the action (assuming that the action doesn’t get so crazy i don’t have time to tweet, or, like last time, I get to sleep through the most “action-y” chunk), you should follow baby_squirt on twitter (or just keep reloading that page. This space, Facebook, and my regular twitter account will all be updated much less frequently, but will have announcements and pictures as soon as logistically/priority-ally feasible.

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  • Adrian

    The real question is; how will this baby affect how often you can post on my Doctor Who reviews?

    Seriously though, all kinds of positive thoughts being sent your way right now. All the best, Kelly. And also to Elliot (who I may or may not call Elly every now and then)

  • Adrian

    The real question is; how will this baby affect how often you can post on my Doctor Who reviews?

    Seriously though, all kinds of positive thoughts being sent your way right now. All the best, Kelly. And also to Elliot (who I may or may not call Elly every now and then)

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