Pending Party of Four

no, really. all i do is sleep these days.

yesterday i got up at 10, took a nap from 1 to 4, and then went to bed around 11pm.
that’s 10 of 24 hours awake.

today i got up at 11, made it all the way to 4 before napping until 6 and now…now it’s looking like it might be bedtime soon. certainly before midnight.
that’s another 10 of 24.

i’m not sure what all is contributing to it. i know that fatigue is the primary factor, but i can’t help think that boredom (yes, there are Things To Do(tm), but nothing really pressing besides some outstanding thank you notes) and melancholy are also factors. why melancholy? well, i’m still pregnant, you see. after this past weekend’s tease, i got all excited about charlotte coming very soon, and have been trying to remind myself that i’m still 11+ days out from my due date, and that’s a due-date i think is a couple of days early anyway. and while “all my friends” gave birth a week or more early, those births were due to complications i don’t have and don’t wish for (everyone turned out healthy in the end). plus, they say that first babies are “usually late.”

needless to say (but i’m saying it anyway) this sort of reality check has led to a bit of gloom. that, added to the fatigue and the boredom means that sleep is really easy for me to reach at any given time. granted, i’m still waking/getting up every couple of hours or so because a position is only comfy for so long before my hips and knees start hurting, but it’s really, *really* easy to roll over or crawl back into bed after a potty break and do it again. after all, what else am i going to do?

it’s sort of like christmas eve where the sooner you go to bed, the sooner it’s christmas.

so i sleep.