subtitled: hiccough wars

so there’s definitely something inside of me. i realize this has been the case all along, but in the past week or so, the little flutters and maybe-kicks have transformed into very clear pokes. i think this kid has the hiccoughs all the time. i’ll get isolated movements occasionally, where it seems he’s just adjusting position or whatever, but more often than not, there will be distinct pulses, usually 3 or 4 in a row, evenly timed, and with no “movement” like he’s switching positions. what can that be other than hiccoughs? i manage to catch my own every so often and have been known to point at my stomach and say “hah! see how you like it, buddy!” apparently that’s a bit …disconcerting to whoever happens to be around me.

a few times they’ve been strong enough that they can be felt from the outside, and ryan was able feel it on friday. i’m not sure how he felt about it, but for me, it brought a new level of reality to the whole thing. it’s no longer “this thing that’s happening to me,” but something that’s officially happening to us. yes, yes, dealing with my hormones and diet drama and being part of purchases of maternity clothes and needing to slow down when we walk places and being woken up in the night when i’m uncomfortable or have to pee etc, etc, means that this pregnancy is most certainly happening to him as well. but still, now some of the cool-yet-freaky things are a part of his experience. i say yay to that.

tomorrow is our “big ultrasound” at the doctors. lots of checking out the baby to see if he’s healthy, taking video for us to share with others, and of course, to determine if i’ve been right about this “he” stuff, or if i need to do a very abrupt change in my perception.

and that’s going to be weird. it’s not that i want a boy as much as i have this really concrete image in my head about what this boy-baby will look like. if it turns out we’re having a girl, not only is my imagining way behind, but that boy-baby has to go away. granted, i may be so thrilled to see the little twerp, gender aside that it won’t really matter :)

i should be making some updates to the picture gallery tonight, too.