week in review: weeks 12 – 16
Tuesday, May 22nd, 2007hi there! remember me? i’m making a baby!
i haven’t updated in over a month because…. um… well some non-baby stuff happened that sort of pulled my focus.
as far as the baby goes, we went to the doctor a couple of weeks ago and heard the heartbeat, which went a long, loooooooong way to alleviate some of my fears about the progesterone. i was worried that the drug might be preventing a natural miscarriage (ie: that nothing was growing anymore). so that was cool.
almost all my first-trimester symptoms faded away once i crossed the line. the only things that are going on this trimester are nose-related (allergies, sinus headaches, etc). a normal person might celebrate that, but i’m anything but normal. pre-heartbeat i was worried about the drugs, and the heartbeat-related confidence has started to fade for no good reason other than i’m me.
you see, my belly popped out a few weeks ago and then hasn’t really grown since then. and while pregnant friends have felt movement around week 14 or 15, i was cruising into week 16 with nary a flutter. or at least anything that i was remotely confident was a flutter.
until yesterday.
well, sunday. maybe a few days before. but yesterday was the first day i felt two very distinct moments of poking that were not connected to anything i ate.
so what does it feel like?
like indigestion only without indigestion. bubbling, gurgling, or whatever you want to call it. it’s like you ate something that disagreed with you and you can feel it moving as it goes all the way through your system. only it doesn’t move it just sort of appears in a place you don’t exactly thing there’s digestive organs and then it is gone.
i’m sure there are random flutters, but those are indistinguishable from any other twitching in my belly so i don’t have enough confidence to count them. part of me looks forward to feeling more and to have a more frequent reminder that yes i’m pregnant and yes everything’s still going okay. part of me is freaked out that there’s a thing inside of me that is big enough to poke at me and is only going to get much, much bigger before it’s “done.”
and then there will be a baby!